January 26th, 2026:

Ooh, world is ending bullshit - might be salvageable, might not be. We’ll see. Through the thick mist of protests… ooh, just gotta look at a couple videos on the internet for a minute to get the gist of what’s going on. Honestly straight up I think the government elites and billionaires have some tricks up their sleeves. I think they carefully planned for these protests a few years ago. The direction of the world is obviously going into chaos mode. So this type of rebellious behavior can and will be rectified. Like yeah I love the good side, with their songs and chants and yes they do bring tears of passionate emotion to my eyes to the point of, well - almost letting them out of my eyelids. But whose gonna win? And what is going to happen? Crowd control is easy as fuck. Ooh, send the AI police soon. Tear gas or the smoke bombs, the riot shields, the self defense excuse mechanisms. It’s the tugging of the riots… beaming with the good versus evil forces on upfront display. What a shame we’re not all good. But it's that stone cold stubbornness of the nation that will never let this happen. Like where does the hatred of immigrants stem from? Are we seriously allowing a television set with cable network to divide us when we’re the same exact species? Do the government elites and billionaires prosper when we fight each other? Like watching a dog fight from the comfort of their own living room? It's all just entertainment until ICE comes to a neighborhood near you. Watching out - your - second story bedroom window while fucking camouflaged men with guns start marching down your street. Wiping out any resemblance of peace and love, like a rainbow flag hanging on your front porch is somehow the enemy. How much more backwards can it get I will never fathom. Like the conservative side that no longer even attends church, that not only supports ICE, but will go - out of their way - to harm people, in the name of an American flag on - their - front porch… while the mindless marching of this land becomes out of touch with the point of America to begin with. And they think this is good. I thought the stars and stripes on that flag were meant to unify us. But now the right side I guess has lost sight of this history a long time ago. But honestly, fuck the liberals too. Both sides are totally full of shit. Most - people, on either side will just agree with whatever they’re told to agree with. Sticking to their guns - pun only slightly intended. Fucking people, ooh, with their protest signs - ooh, take a selfie of me for my Instagram type bullshit. Not everyone, but some. Whatever happened to independence? But at least we’re trying. Like I hate seeing republicans using that laughing face emoji on Facebook on posts that show minorities like gay people or Latinos being like mistreated. You look like - such - an asshole. How about getting off the internet and going fishing or hunting instead like you’re suppose to be doing? Cause honestly all of your screen time is making you look weird and pathetic, and probably a closeted gay. But I don’t think we’re getting together - any - time soon. And this - could - be the end of the world. So we’ll clash, yeah we’ll clash. Until the people up top, CEOs, or whatever… come down from above like a parachute. They will own and smother us all, just how they want it. The world no longer has a grip on reality. The only thing we really can do is to promote peace. I think the good side - will - win in the long run. Just please realize we are just all the universe. Deep down we are the same exact person. No, seriously! We are a giant human fighting with themself, it's like as if we have bipolar disorder. I understand how one person can argue with themself all day long. This ICE shit is a big universal argument that is now turning deadly. Let's bond over our social anxiety. Let's say hi to each other again. Not hide in our houses with our, ooh, president signs out on the front lawn. Watching the TV objectify us. Fucking act like an adult. There is dire consequences that are completely on the line right now! Everyday counts. I will personally journal this asinine time right now… I guess that’ll be what I’ll do to help. But I’m also full of shit… and perhaps so are you. So let's get some toilet paper. Ooh, I guess that’s all I’ve got to say. Maybe I’ll even be nice to someone today, I don’t know, we’ll see.

Janaury 13th, 2026:

Ooh, I don’t know anymore. Losing grip of understanding society. The world is turning ugly quickly. People just aren’t happy anymore. Stressed inside America. ICE shooting craziness. Way I see it… the girl was driving away and she was shot. Looked at the video that’s all I saw. Not sure how it was self defense. So the universe submits to murder. Cold blood red murder. These occurrences will accumulate like an astronomical snowball. Dead in the streets… becoming the normal. Watching outside our windows, witnessing in horror the army men marching in heavy camouflage with guns. Formations with their “ten huts” or whatever they’re saying these days… bounced right back into a riot protest. The yin and yang of the universe. You push, we pull. So the ICE mechanism is becoming out of control, while the young ones are playing guns in the neighborhood backyard. Generations of violence. ICE cuffing latinos like finding jews in the Holocaust. Its that history repeats itself mentality that is at work before our very eyes… just this time its happening in America. Like we’re just allowing this to happen… wondering while learning in high school how the germans just let it go on too. But isn’t history repetitive because of the bipolar magnetic infrastructure of the cosmos? Back and forth energy. The universe pulses like a pinball. This is its next shit show. No excuses, though. Who the fuck volunteers to work for ICE? I’ll tell you who. Pissed off apes, with shaved heads and a weapon. This is legalized murder. Can’t trust a son of a bitch anymore. They aren’t trying to do good for this nation, they’re just horrible people who want to act out their rage. Misanthropy to the extreme… I just can’t rely on people anymore… if this is how they behave. Twisted smiles, those fucking phonies. We are a weird, very weird fucking country. We here in America are the pinnacle of Earth. This is where the bright lights are, the violence… the evil, the daily mass shootouts. The parallels to ICE and the gestapo are clearly relevant. Donald Trump is a pig faced dictator. Yeah, maybe he doesn’t have millions of death under his belt, but the actions are almost just the same as Hitler. Like when we read high school text books about Mussolini. When you’re living under the regime its harder to see. But when you read the text book you tend to think… how did this happen? Well, I think we know how this happened. Human nature can just be a terrible thing. No, they are so many nice… caring, and loving people. But these people would not sign up for ICE. The ICE force is scary. So please, understand my skepticism. Martial law will be in effect soon. We will not be able to resist, or voice our opinions if they do not line with Donald Trump. This place has become a police state. The red and blue lights of a police car. The nightsticks and smoke grenades. The hyper masculinity that is completely misaimed. Are these people seriously under the impression that they are doing good for this world? We as humans must move in a different direction. We need a new era. We need a new mentality. If we as a species can get through this now bad time in the universal force of pulsing energy… that we are clearly experiencing… we will shift back into a good time. Just this time, we must take things extremely seriously. With the build up of technology… we must video and document this absolutely insane time. We must use our resources against them, not for them. I am so sorry to all of Renee Good’s loved ones. I hope at the very least, this unfortunate occurrence can at least start a revolution. If we can make it through this Trump administration, I just know that we can enter a new renaissance.

January 1st, 2026:

Wow! 2026 is such a futuristic sounding year. And it feels we are in the future as well. I swear, like I had some Honey Grow the other day… had to place my order with the kiosk. Had to submit my name and phone number just to have a meal. Everything logged and tracked now I suppose. Must obtain social media for citizenship. Click submit to everything at the bottom of the document that you did not read. But there’s loopholes in these user agreements. Share information between applications. Hand over camera and mic access to the tech lords. Like a water dam that capsized and now our personal information is leaking down the digital waterfall. But the future is more than just this invasion of privacy. This is a completely updated world. Noticing the newly gentrified looks for all of the stores in our towns, with sleek neon signs. McDonalds replacing their play areas, instead with kids wearing iPhone goggles running around like mad. Trying to go viral over night on their Instagram accounts. The future crept up on us but now it's here. It’s like they have set up our lives for us in our little towns. Get your groceries at Acme, get your car fixed at Pep Boys, buy your electronics at Best Buy, and then go fucking home where its safe. Every town is the same. Like this little conditioning they have us under. While we waft through the fog, daydreaming in ghost towns, as if we’re being shaken around in a snow globe. Tap your debit card once for payment. The supersonic streaming of data that ultimately builds up into our make believe bank accounts. Delete physical currency. Transfer over economical ideas into systematic certainties. Like if they pulled the switch on these bank systems, the whole marching formation of society would go insane. They now have this option. The future is control. But now I’m going to stop using the word future. This is now the present. The systems were already set in place throughout 2025. Now it's 2026, so it's now time to act out these ideas on the stage of life. And while we turn into these inevitable robots… we must make sure we are still caring for our young. Take care of your AI children. Make sure they are eating healthy. Try your best to limit screen time. Make them read a book before they lose this ability to. Make sure they are growing up to become an adult. Because with the present… this learning is now optional. Weight gain is expected. Finances will be tight. But this new world can be a beautiful thing. Maybe if we didn’t allow the billionaires, the kings of modern day society, to own the stage, we could prosper and use all of this new technology in a more positive sense. It’s like Christmas. There’s so many gifts to open. This juncture in the space time continuum is so obviously crucial. We are at the crossroads of the present, and everything is on the line. Solutions are limited. But maybe if we turned our faces towards each other, instead of toward our phone screens, we’d turn back into being human. I personally can’t wait for the present! Happy new year!

December 22nd, 2025:

Merry fucking Christmas, huh? While the pedaling of the consumers frolic around town. Always on hurry mode. Traffic lights don’t break the barrier. Ooh, must procreate shopping for the common man. Like as if. So much to do, while underneath is nothing… like sneakers on fire, that rub against the ground… yeah, we’re all just fucking around if you ask me. So much commotion above the volcano… but the earthlings gotta learn. Dishing out dollar bills for the thrill. Like the big gaping whole of the earth is just a sensation to buy. If you ask me, I look through skeptical eyes. As if we really care about each other. I’m losing blind faith in this department. Must see family over the holidays. Begin to decorate the Christmas lights… festive, action. Sure, man… I’ll accept some presents. All this hubbub. The kids love it but the adults are stressed. So much to get done before the danger point. Avoiding gift card resolutions… but it happens. Slap a smile on the people. Best sales of the year! Rotating the wheels of our feet to purchase, purchase, purchase. Yeah okay… let’s just join hands and celebrate the history of traditional civilization. Put some fucking presents under the tree. Gimme, gimme, gimme.

December 15th, 2025:

Is the world coming to a close? The napkin of the Earth may be folding itself. People becoming nastier. More hostile. Less patient. What if technology is what’s killing the world? Is the universe currently overwhelmed right now? I mean think about it, poor guy, the universe. It is becoming self aware at an alarming rate. Like when we take selfies… is it not the universe looking at itself? As if the cameras are some sort of truth serum. Is this dimension truly ready for all of this information about itself? What if it doesn’t like what it sees? Will it commit suicide, and all of us with it? Are we not just a vessel for the universe to continue its own self aware parade? Like starting off as single celled organisms in a pond… and working our way up to human intelligence. We are now live. All of our connected devices are creating an omnipresent and omniscient force across the globe… you can call the internet “God” if you’d like. Blah, blah, blah. All of our videos taken on cellphones only perpetuate this asinine concept. Permanence. Technology is a mirror. Look into it for the documentation of this strange planet. We’ve been being used as a tool by the universe for far too long, since the dawn of time. Yes, we grew eyeballs by the universe because it wanted to poke its head out and take a look at itself. In the grand scheme we’re all just a pile of bodies… crawling around the surface… we are all just fucking around with our five senses. We see, taste, smell, hear, and feel. That is what the universe wanted. Just to simply get to know itself. It was all nice and primitive at first… curious. But now we are solidifying the existence of this dimension with technology, and it's getting weird. It’s the next stage. We are capturing this bizarre being that we are apart of. It is now permanent. It’s very new and scary for the universe… that is what translates into what we call anxiety disorder, for us. We are taking a huge chance here. This world going crazy isn’t necessarily about individuals. It’s about the big picture. All of a sudden we are witnessing gun violence way more. Not to alleviate blame here, but is it also not just the universe growing angry? Like it's just a giant creature that has been having a rough few years. Maybe this tragic violence sprouting up everywhere is just the world ending itself. Do you see? It is becoming upset. The universe is growing shaky… out of control. It's becoming aggressive. Our personal lives are being shaped by this monstrosity. We must submit to a higher order. We must make sure we are keeping ourselves safe. We have to hug each other. We gotta promote peace instead of war. We are the building blocks of chaos. So let's build something good with it, to reverse this direction we’re heading in. Watch your vibes and your tone of voice. Let’s speak to the leaves in the forest. Make them happy again. We should celebrate our origins, I say we worship our planet. Because if it’s not happy, we’re not happy. Besides, what does the Earth care if we live or die? It was just trying to chill out, anyway.

December 14th, 2025:

AI is taking over soon and I don’t know what will transpire. I guess none of us do… but maybe the billionaires who own it do. It's like a fortune teller device. They’re probably asking it how it can be used to make them more money. I’m pretty sure AI is already set up and ready to go. But only like five people have real access to it. I am seeing a new civilization being constructed right before our very eyes because of this. I am envisioning a global elite force. The information we will extract from this giant machine in some hidden secret warehouse will be used against us. By a small group of people. They will use it to their advantage because they are the ones in control of it. They will suck the money out of society like a vacuum. These few people in charge, in the most powerful positions that dictate the currents of the world… are seemly not good people. These are the keys in society. The pillars of turning points. Trump’s administration has only been utilized to serve these few people. I see chaos in our near future. The slow conditioning of society has been creeping up on us. Like “Meta AI” humming in the background of our Facebooks the last year or so. In just a few years our economy will be bankrupt. The systems being set in place currently are going to get exponentially worse when AI becomes more self aware. It will start to generate itself. Perpetuating this society in this new unknown direction. We will become the robots ourselves… as we have been becoming for decades. The vast majority of our lives has now become screen time. Once AI kicks in we will not use our brains. We will let the mechanical vibes ride right through us. I believe wars will be started. Flame throwers activating themselves, burning down the crops of today. While nature dissipates at the first sign of danger. Everything becomes electronic. This is going to be chaos. The brainwashing is astounding. The claps and cheers on the television stations… the celebrity endorsements… the increasingly shitty fucking movies in theaters. While the future of the art world will depend on these fucking robot stars. Yes incase you haven’t heard… the next big music star is going to be an AI robot. True story. While the billionaires collect even more money from their concert ticket sales… and they don’t have to pay it a single fucking dollar. The panic of society will be absurd when we start to wonder wether people are robots or real actual human beings. Can’t trust anything anymore. Music will start to make itself… computed with math what melodies will sell the most. I hardly see the point anymore. Capitalism is no longer a fun pursuit. College is a joke. While the dumbing down of the education system starts to become more apparent. What the fuck is the point of teaching our kids anything anymore if a robot can do the work for you? Will children now no longer attend school? Will it all be virtual? Missing vital moments to grow social skills? And what exactly happens when all of the jobs become autonomous? Do we still get paid to live in a tiny house? While the environment gets fucked outside of our little mechanical cabins, courtesy of Elon Musk. The humid summers into the frigid winters… with no spring or fall in between. While the meteorologist makes jokes about it on TV. And the media and the news hardly speak of what’s happening right now. Keep em fed and happy with their fucking favorite TV shows. This whole world if failing on us. I do believe AI will be the death of society if used incorrectly, which it will be. All integrity is lost. The future is scary and unknown. Only the rich will survive, while the poor struggle to eat a chicken sandwich from McDonalds, that use to be on a “dollar menu”. But no, that doesn’t exist anymore either. A great divide is about to form. If you’ve made the money… you will win, if not, you will lose. Like all of Washington. I don’t trust a single one of them anymore. Hand em a few million and they’ll shut up. Means nothing to the billionaires. It's an investment and ultimately they’ll prosper. So let's all just join hands are appreciate what we have left. Trump supporters are fucking delusional. They want to fit in and be cool. Like they’ve never graduated from high school. It is alpha male to support Trump. And thats all it fucking takes. Don’t show love or freedom. It is uncool, and may even be illegal one day. Salute the one’s in charge, young monkeys. Cheer on the problem. And see what happens when we no longer have our planet Earth. The billionaires will be fine though, don’t worry. They’ll fly away from this demolished jail cell they made, into Mars. The next frontier. Right when it's too late for us. We must speak out. We must not let our mouths be sewed shut by some internet stitches. Must communicate instead of looking at our phones for the answers. Must become one with our origins in nature. We can still live naturally with technology. But we must be responsible. We cannot let the ones in charge separate us either. Where does this social divide come from? As if the red is evil, and the blue side is good. But it's not that simple. The waves of the political… social system were shaped by our government, yes. But I think ultimately we need to realize we are still in the jungle of nature. We are intelligent monkeys. And our whole ecosystem is connected. Homophobia stems from repression, etc. Red MAGA hats aren’t on top of people’s heads… they are just a bad vibe blowing in the wind. Dissolve the ego, and become aware of the forces of nature. Before the computers become aware of how to blind us from this certainty.

December 2nd, 2025:

Feeling fine. When you grow every day there’s not much you can do about it. Like always realizing how stupid you were the day before. I’m constantly entering these layers of self awareness and understanding of the universe… but then they always fall through and become meaningless all over again. I cannot trust myself due to this. Like right now I feel in my prime… but the aspect of time will kill me again and again and again. So what exactly do I do..? I just want understanding and peace of mind. But the shedding layers of this pursuit kill me every time. Always thinking I finally get it. And then life reaps it right back. Oh well, nothing I can do about that. Gonna have to let that one go.

November 20th, 2025:

Ah shit, what makes me so special? Everyone is lost, everyone doesn’t know what’s going on. Like I remember being on the train when I was a Temple student, looking at all of the other people, thinking they were sheep. They could see right through me. Okay, okay so life is an illusion. Baby whines and cries. Yeah we get it. Get over it and work harder. This ain’t no excuse. You don’t have a leg up on people. We’re all faking it. Continuing a social waste of time. I wish I could just talk to someone about this illusion, but nobody really seems to care about this. Like a Wawa cashier or something. You pay for your shit and leave. No small talk, its just disruptive. Ooh, what am I going to do if I’m on the same page as everyone else. Thought I was special… but I’m not.

November 12th, 2025:

I am nothing without you. Must direct my needs for human companionship. Seeking relationship just for the relatedness of it. I really gotta know there’s someone else out there, someone that is living through what I am. So we can help each other out. If you don’t know what’s going on or don’t know what you’re looking at anymore. I have been going along with the confusion for like a decade now. I want my relationship. I’ve suffered enough. I need to find you as soon as possible. I must know I’m not insane. I know there are people like me. Send help ASAP.

October 29, 2025:

Must handle life. It gets weirder everyday. But I also grow stronger and more apt at handling it. The more I live the less I know. And simultaneously it gets harder. What a paradox. It's like a hike up hill. Stop sometimes to chill out, eat something on the forest floor. What the fuck do I do, when I’ve got laundry to do, get my car “fixed” even though its just a “maintenance due soon” message on my dashboard. Which pops up based on mileage basis. Like if it were an older car I’d have no idea it “needed” to be fixed. They just want my money. Just like how I need my wisdom teeth pulled… been putting that off. But they just need my money. I hate real life responsibilities. Like why can’t I just do my fucking art. And focus on what I really want to do? I know I’ll be alright but still. Is that enough to persist? Do I know enough for survival? I think I do. The more lost you are the better. And you’re forced to use your own judgment. Fuck it, fuck it. Live free. I - hardly - care anymore about the public views, anymore. Like I’m holding my bag in the car place crossdressed. Like I’m not there now but in the future. Must continue. Like I can’t just compromise myself for strangers. Especially because they’re doing it too, to me. We must pull off the cloth that separates us. Must see we are all literally one. I will help you… but only if that services me too… type mentality. But it's definitely a start.

October 26, 2025:

Do I have personal thought? What is the mind, exactly? Are we tuning in to the thoughts of the universe..? Where is my thought? In the middle of my brain..? Or is our thought everywhere? I’m struggling to accept the fact that I will always be where I’m at. Even if I traveled the universe, I’d still just be right here. Same thing with time. In ten years from now, it will just still be right now. Does the macroscopic and microscopic exist? Are we all crammed into the painting of life? Such as, further objects from my peripheral are equidistant to closer objects. Its all the same shit. I feel like a wall, because of this. Its like there is no depth of vision. I must persist through life as this canvas of confusion. I am the wall.

October 25, 2025:

I am subjected to believe that everything happens for a reason. Like not literally for a reason… just that my life path is like, fate? Like maybe if I got that one awesome job (just a hypothetical concept), I would have died in a plane crash. It's like everything is connected… which can be, overwhelming. Just realize that the fact you chose a certain place to eat for dinner, ultimately affected a child in Taiwan. This is why I try not to get upset. Because I really haven’t much control of my life anyway. If I didn’t do this, I wouldn’t have done that, etc. Must find ways to relax, can and will cope with society. I am on my right path.

October 13, 2025:

What am I even talking about anymore? I am becoming one with the illusion of life. Must roll on, despite confusement. Loving life currently. Will find ways to connect with others. Hard to find someone to relate to. Or maybe we’re just all the same, and just hide it under our social interaction. Are we all just perpetuating bullshit? When the whole time we could have just chilled out and just been honest with each other? Please let's not waste our time. I will try my best to be candid today. Attempts to conduct real life conversation. But I’m scared! This is dangerous territory. But we’re all lost, man. I get that. Just chill out and rectify. Ultimately we’re all the universe. Let’s become one. We are all the same thing anyway.

October 11, 2025:

Do I have personal thought or am I subjected to the hell hole of mankind’s hive mind? Are my thoughts influenced by you when I am near you? Are vibrations contagious? I am running out of space and time. Is there anyone else out there in the same predicament as me? I am going crazy and losing grip of normality at an alarming rate. There is nothing I can do about this.