October 25, 2025:

I am subjected to believe that everything happens for a reason. Like not literally for a reason… just that my life path is like, fate? Like maybe if I got that one awesome job (just a hypothetical concept), I would have died in a plane crash. It's like everything is connected… which can be, overwhelming. Just realize that the fact you chose a certain place to eat for dinner, ultimately affected a child in Taiwan. This is why I try not to get upset. Because I really haven’t much control of my life anyway. If I didn’t do this, I wouldn’t have done that, etc. Must find ways to relax, can and will cope with society. I am on my right path.

October 13, 2025:

What am I even talking about anymore? I am becoming one with the illusion of life. Must roll on, despite confusement. Loving life currently. Will find ways to connect with others. Hard to find someone to relate to. Or maybe we’re just all the same, and just hide it under our social interaction. Are we all just perpetuating bullshit? When the whole time we could have just chilled out and just been honest with each other? Please let's not waste our time. I will try my best to be candid today. Attempts to conduct real life conversation. But I’m scared! This is dangerous territory. But we’re all lost, man. I get that. Just chill out and rectify. Ultimately we’re all the universe. Let’s become one. We are all the same thing anyway.

October 11, 2025:

Do I have personal thought or am I subjected to the hell hole of mankind’s hive mind? Are my thoughts influenced by you when I am near you? Are vibrations contagious? I am running out of space and time. Is there anyone else out there in the same predicament as me? I am going crazy and losing grip of normality at an alarming rate. There is nothing I can do about this.